18 March 2009

Hey, It's Really Okay! In Fact, It's Great!

No pedantic scholarly dissertation this time. Hold the applause please. Just a quick note to record a realization over the last few days. I have a white knot pinned to my black computer bag. I don't know who will notice it, or who will know what it is. But I realized just a few days ago that I've finally reached the point that if the subject of my being gay comes up in casual conversation with a business colleague or associate, I wouldn't blink an eye about acknowledging it. Like the color of my eyes, or what kind of car I drive. I'm not going to go round advertising it, but if it comes up, NBD. Sure, that's what I am. And your next point? Politely, of course.

WOW this feels good. And I guess it's noticeable, because this morning I had a business meeting with someone I worked with at another company, I hadn't seen him for at least 5 years, and when I walked into the conference room he said Wow, you look 25, you look great! Like I said before, I never imagined how much happier I would be about life and everything in it as a result of coming out. Amazing.


austin said...

I have one on my backpack here at BYU. I'm not quite sure what I'm going to say when someone asks what it means. Probably something like "marriage equality" and I'll see if they pick up on that.

Scott said...

I'm glad that you've been able to so completely accept and embrace everything that makes you who you are.

I've found the exact same thing that you have--the more comfortable I've become with the complete, integrated me, the more happy and peaceful I've become.

It's a good place to be.